MY HEART-SINK MOMENT
My most recent heart-sink moment made me take note, why should a fleeting rejection leave me in such emotional turmoil?
I learnt the reason only after I became aware and could make the link to many such moments in my past that I had endured but those experiences seemingly vanished until this rejection brought vivid scenes back to my mind as the copy of the earlier blueprint.
heart-sink moments
I recoil from recall
as fleeting moments redact
memories from vivid, vicious scenes
I interrogate myself
why, year after year, it make no sense
why my fated agon with Zyclon
what do I seek to retrieve?
I’m driven beyond reason
by flickering passions
with lightning force
instinctively beckon to re-enter
ferment, fresh ghostly forms
submerged, vanished
without hint or warning
emerge
as my mother’s witness
gradually I also emerge
now reconciled beyond
recoil from recall
